feeling weird
dealing is hard sometimes
even harder when you're alone
i need to distract myself
keep my self distracted
i try
keeping busy all the time is tiring
but i need to do it
if i keep myself busy enough it's hard to find time to think
and it's harder to be lonely

sometimes the feelings get jumbled in my head
i don't know what i'm feeling or why i'm feeling it
i feel sad with no real reasoning
and then i'm fine
i think
when i'm not doing i think

sometimes i feel like crying
sometimes i feel like screaming
sometimes i feel like hurting
sometimes i feel like curling up and not moving
sometimes i feel nothing