When will it end

Sometimes I find it hard to see the light
It's been about a month since J died and it's not getting any easier
Every day is a struggle
Little things bug me
I'm finding it really hard to deal with family, mostly E, she has a habit of making random remarks which she probably doesn't mean anything by but I can't help but take them to heart at the moment.
Everything hurts
Getting out of bed is a struggle
Even dealing with Kitty can be a challenge
When will it all end
When will the tears stop
Everyone else seems to be moving on
Everyone is enjoying looking at photos, relieving memories
I can't do it
I can't take the looking back
It swallows me deeper into this big hole
I am consumed by emotion
When will I see the light