Heavy

My eyes are heavy with tears
My heart is heavy with sorrow
My head is heavy with thoughts
My stomach is heavy with dread
My body is heavy with emotion
This feeling I feel sure will never fade
This feeling of heaviness
Of uselessness
Just a look
A touch
A word
I miss what I don't have
I miss what I want
I miss what I haven't yet achieved
All this adds up into a heaviness
Impossible to displace
I have failed
I am heavy