It hits like a sledge hammer to the heart
It knocks the wind out of your body
It knocks the light out
Everything is dark
You don't know what to do
How to feel
How to act
You wonder if it will ever be right again
Your world-view gets twisted
Does it even matter?
Does anything even matter?
Why are you still here when the other person isn't?
Why were they taken?
You get angry
At DEATH
At the world
At everything
People around you continue on with their lives
How?
Why?
People laugh
How?
Why?
There is nothing there
Nothing inside
Nothing but a pit of darkness
A pit of sad
Then something reminds you of the person
And sometimes it makes you smile
A song
Sometimes it makes you cry
An item of clothing
Sometimes it makes you confused about whether you want to smile or cry
An idea
You know eventually it will get better
Eventually
You cling to this thought with all your might
It won't always be like this
Slowly
Slowly
Slowly
It will get better
