Falling Apart

I feel like I'm falling apart inside
So many unanswered feelings
I said I was over it
Over you
I said I wasn't going to waste my feelings
Waste my thoughts

You creep in to my head
Unbidden
I see you everywhere
In everything

How do I close it?
Close you
Move on

Do I cut you out completely?
Would that be easier?
Should I learn to close my mind?
Close my eyes?

One day maybe I shall find a way.

Something's gone

I gave myself to you
   more than you know
That piece of me that was yours
   now lays smashed on the floor

What we once had
   we shall never get back
My trust is gone
   there is no return

I still want to know you
   I will be here for you
But my eyes and my heart weep
   for the lost comfort I may no longer seek

I'm sorry for the burden
   I put onto you
Be well, Live well
   until next we meet

For my beautiful on her birthday -14/4/2015

To my beautiful lovely creature

You are my sunshine when it’s cloudy

My light when it’s dark

You are my strength when I’m weak

You are my rock when I feel like I’m on a crumbling coast

You are my love, my primary, my precious

Feelings

Feelings
Emotions
The curse of humanity
The bane of existence

Why do these feelings jump unbidden into my heart
I was doing so well
Friends was going good
But the feelings remain there from another time

They make me feel two-faced
Untrustworthy
I stand and smile while underneath
The thoughts and the feelings
Hidden inside scream to be let out
Beg me to shout

But I don't
Inside they remain
I forsake my true feelings for friendship
Friendship I couldn't bear to lose

xx