nostalgia

i find myself nostalgic for the days past
saddening for those i've lost through both distance and time
the days when i knew everything
those days when i knew where i was headed
the friends more like family
the flats more like home
the days when life was like one big party
and i was seldom alone
i find myself nostalgic
for a simpler time
for a simpler life
for a simpler me

Memory

The memory was hidden from all

Locked behind a giant wall

I told not a soul

To keep all safe

And so the wall grew and ivy doth protect the place

One soul is told

The wall crumbled

The memory floods out

Infecting my thoughts

How does it happen

A betrayal of trust

A child used

It wasn’t rough but the shame is enough

It turns inwards as anger

Inwards as pain

The invisible scars are still there and will always remain

Hurt from the inside causes hurt on the out

How can this happen

From one you did trust                                           

                                                                                                30 april 2012

Numb Again

Numb again

What’s the point

What am i

I feel like a piece of rubbish no one wants

My heart is solid

Heavy

Do I look that weak

Do I seem that fragile

I wish it was simple

The numbness settles

The walls rebuild

The ivy grows

Safe inside

Numb again                                                              

                                                                                  18 june 2012

Hope

The message received

The thought in my mind

The sight of your smile

The curve of your face

These things make me smile

So easy

So free

You make me feel

A feeling I thought dead

Reborn

Reawaken

You make me laugh with an ease I thought lost

I thank you for this

And hope your day went well                                  

                                                                                           21 may 2012

Home

It is laid out below
A patchwork of colour
A puzzle with no end
Rivers glisten with the lessening sun
The hills andvalleys thrown into sharp relief and highlight
Snow-tipped mountians coloured orange
It looks to be a wonderland devoid of life
An untouched paradise
It is the place of my heart
It is my home

The words of change

Self-esteem
Self-worth
These words have meaning beyond everything
These words can change the feeling of self
These words and their meanings change and fade
As a person develops through each stage
I'm not sure if they realise when these words are repeated
The meaning
The impact
Self-esteem
Self-worth
Rise
Fall
The words of change

The Memory

The memory was hidden from all
Locked behind a giant wall
I told not a soul
To keep all safe
And so the wall grew and ivy doth protect the place
One soul is told
The wall crumbled
The memory floods out
Infecting my thoughts
How does it happen
A betrayal of trust
A child used
It wasn't rough but the shame is enough
It turns inwards as anger
Inwards as pain
The invisible scars are still there
And will always remain
Hurt from the inside causes hurt on the out
How can this happen
From one you did trust

Love Rights

The love of two
The love of a few
The love of many
These remain true
No matter their gender
Their status
Their way
The love to share remains strong and true
The display may differ
From one to the next
But the love is still there
To have and to share
Be it girl-girl or girl-boy
Boy-boy or trans-gen
The love still remains
It's there and it's true

The Fire Burns

The fire burns
An everlasting flame
At the end
All that remains
A breath
A whisper
A ghost of what was
My soul
My ki
The memory of love

New Year

As New Years eve fades into New Years day
the thoughts of previous life fade into future hope
thoughts switch from that of fact to those of dreams
from right now to maybe if
resolutions are made with thoughts of following them through
but as we all know it's probably not true
people set goals on that the first day
how many are reached i simply can't say
as New Years eve fades into New Years day
my past is all gone i live just for today

Holidays

Sitting in the sun
or maybe the rain
a time for friends
a time for playin'
at beach
or at bach
or at home
or away
a time to catch up on sleep
or on work
or on fun
friends
family
whomever you choose
holidays are times
for you to do as you please
to come as you go
to stay as you leave
holidays are full of this
and more of these things